I have been on an emotional overload; it has felt like my head is a disco ball going around and around with loads of memories, old feelings, and hurts from over the years. One of my Podcasts said that as you dive into learning about being an HSP it can leave you feeling overloaded with emotions from the memories flooding in from over the years. It is so true. I am beginning to understand why I relive things repeatedly, and why I can't just put things "away" and move on. When I was getting ready for my first HSP Group Zoom meeting I kept thinking I didn't belong here, how I could fit in, and they might not want me in their group or believe I belonged. Then within minutes, I felt like I was in the right place, and after a brief time, I was in tears because I finally felt like there were people just like me! There were folks with all my same issues! For the first time in my life, I felt like someone knew how I "work," how I am wired, think, feel, and hurt. ...
I just have finished another book about HSP's, which I loved! Several times now I have heard it is good for HSP's to journal, and I am finding this is very true. Interestingly enough about 2 years ago I was not dealing well with my emotions after my feelings were hurt and my Dad's death. At this time I did not know anything about being an HSP but I knew I was heading into a dark place, no I was in a dark place already, and I needed help. I sought out a counselor, and unfortunately, because I wasn't available weekly since I go to Murphy once a month to help my mom, and because I was going away on a vacation this counselor stopped seeing me. She simply would not respond to my texts when I returned home and tried to schedule our next meeting. Talk about feeling lower than low, this really hurt me. So, I decided I would help myself. I started researching dealing with emotional hurts, deaths, feelings of not being good enough, and being told over and over again I was too s...